Patience Is Tough

I decided that this post would focus on the virtue of patience. I chose patience because there are going to be some exciting things happening in the next nine days that I am really excited about that I need to be patient and calm about.
As an Autistic nineteen year old, I have this little thing I go by called "The Normal Regular World." What that means is I go to places I'm used to going, I hang out with the same people, I do the same things. It's basic, regular, and recognizable. Most importantly, it's the same, which is what I like. I do NOT, I repeat, DO NOT enjoy waiting in suspense for surprises. I also do not enjoy little last minute stuff. When those things approach me, I want to know about it. I always ask these questions: "Where are we going?" "What are we doing?" "Will I have fun?" "Will there be food there I like?" "Will there be people I know?" "Will I be okay here?" The answer I get is the same (irony moment): "Just wait and see, and enjoy the ride."
Key word: WAIT. Patience and I are not good friends. I don't like waiting for stuff because I either get too excited or too worried. In this case, it's both. Next week is my last week of school until my three and a half month long summer vacation, so I'm pretty excited about that. Next Friday, I'm going on a school trip to DETROIT, and we're doing some cool stuff, so I'm pretty stoke about that. That same day, I'll be seeing the Tigers play for the first time! I'm a baseball fan, so you can probably bet I am super, super excited for that!! I have the same plan (again, irony moment): take it one day at a time. I'm already getting excited just writing this and thinking about it!
However, here's where the worry kicks in: summer vacation. The last time I had a full summer vacation was two years ago in 2013! I took summer classes last year, and I've gotten used to it already! I took summer off because I figured it'll do me some good to take a little breather and enjoy what summer might bring. Here's the problem: I don't know what summer will bring. I'm the type of Autistic person who likes to know things ahead of time, and plan things. I already know I got to do some things for the book, and I know I'll be with my family. I just don't know what I'll be doing. In Toledo, summer can be very surprising or very ordinary. I'll just leave it up to God and my mom and dad to decide.
My mom always says to me, "Taylor, you need to broaden your horizons." That means to try something new. I think that will officially be my summer goal this year: trying new things, adjust to last minute surprises, and to be more patient and trying to enjoy the ride.