SO, I've been on a blogger's block for a while, but I'll have a few posts for you this week, since today is my first day of a la escuela. So, I'll be on my computer a while.
I've posted on Instagram about what YOU want me to talk about, and a mom came forward and asked that I write about how I feel about love and life. So, I'm here to deliver.
So, I have been in a relationship when I was 13, and that only lasted for two months. Since 2009, I've been single. Yep, I'm still single. I think boys just don't want to date me, which I cannot understand. As someone with Autism, I am a VERY picky and needy person, I always go into my own world at some point every day, I have meltdowns from time to time, and I can't stay out in public for a long time because of the many noises and sights that would shut me down. Yes, that's true. But, I'm also a funny, sweet, caring, and enjoyable girl, and all they see is my Autism. They push themselves away before getting to actually know me, which hurts more than not having a boyfriend. I am also a God seeking and God fearing girl as well. I've learned to trust in his timing and He'll send the one He picked for me when the time comes. That being said, I do see myself getting married to Mr. Right one day, and ADOPTING my children. I'm all about adoption because #1, I have a very high pain tolerance, and childbirth looks very painful. And #2, there are children who want a good home with parents who'll love and care for them, and I'm more than willing to do that for a few of them. Who knows? I'm leaving it up to God and His timing. So, that's my stance of love and romance.
Now, onto life. I'm now 20, which is the age that young adults are living in dorms, and drive, and have jobs, and live on their own. But I'm also Autistic. I don't drive, I don't live in dorms, I don't have a job (well, with my book and all this advocacy, I guess that classifies as a job), and I'm not living on my own. But I can vote (PLEASE VOTE IN THE 2016 ELECION, YOUR VOICE MATTERS)! Other than that, I have to rely very highly on my parents. I rely on them for food, clothes, transportation, money, and a roof over my head. Some Autistic people are on their own, which I've always dreamed about. I just don't feel I'm ready to venture out into the world on my own just yet, and my parents feel the same. Because the discrimination of people with Autism, Asbergers, Down Syndrome, and other learning, cognitive disorders is brutal. We might get a job, since the National Americans With Disabilities Act passed in 1990, but people give us looks, and whispers, and judge how we do things, which makes it so hard. Plus, if we get too overwhelmed, we get tense and don't do anything, which causes more people to judge, which makes it worse.
I say this a lot, but with Autism, everything comes down to ACCEPTANCE. I cannot stress this word enough. Acceptance is the KEY word when it comes to Autism. Accepting us with Autism for who we are is something we all need to do. If I can do it and YOU can do it, so can everyone else. So, accept others for who they are on the inside and not on the outside is the main message here.
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